bad week

Argghhh
What the hell happen to me for this whole week
Have been doing so many wrong things
Done badly for my test
And sorry guys for all the mistake i did for the project
Especially to Nizam, now u have to do everything in my stead
Really really sorry
I really do not know what have gotten to me
Haiz hope I won't mess up the upcoming presentation as well
Sorry guys

moody

Today is kinda bad
Nothing seems to go right
Stuffs happen that make me seriously unhappy
Ok actually not just today, had been this way for a few days now
Hopefully things will improve soon

what exactly is friend?

It had been a hectic week
Busy writing report
Doing calculation for the structure project
Barely able to hold together
At the same time of being busy
Feeling of frustration has been gushing out

Had been feeling that I am a failure as a friend
Most of the people nowadays don't seem to be able to find any topic/reason to look for me unless they want me to teach them something
Do I seem like a walking encyclopedia/a teacher to you?
Well I don't mean that I m not willing to teach anyone in their study
As a matter of fact I love to teach
But do people really think of me as their friend though
90% of the msg that i received ask me to teach them sth
And ppl who chat with me normally require me to look for them to start the chat
I hope ppl do realise that I am their friend
I am not only available when they need to know/ask sth
I am tired of such a life
I have been meaning to ask this
Am I really such a bad friend
Am I only good for asking question?
Do I treat people badly?

Well enough of the insane babbling
Just trying to write sth out, thats all
You ppl can ignore me
I guess i am just feeling..errr...duno:P
Time to get ready for the upcoming 30 hours famine camp =)
Gonna post more when I am free ^^

隐藏的，终究会出现？

这种感觉隐藏了在心里某处几年了
还以为从此以后不会再浮现
还以为自己失去了这种。。本事
没想到
在毫无防备下
现在再次地出现了
又袭击了我
说真的
感觉。。还满怪的
脑袋的空间一直被占据着
做事无法集中
真的是烦死人了
不过，我说过
没希望的东西我是不做的
所以也没期望什么
只希望能专心做我的事

not happy, seriously not

Waked up early in the morning
And was well...hmm not so excitedly prepare for the football
Just to found out that the game has been canceled
Called wb and told me he was sick
wtf is with him, he was sick yday and he dun even bother to tell us that the game is canceled
Depriving me of how little sleep that i can have
I am not one to be able to sleep for a long time, mind you
As mentioned in a few post ago
But I still have to wake up early for the game
Just to get a SORRY from him for forgetting to inform me that the game is off
Ok i know he is not well and all, and well...we KNOW him
But this is a bit too irresponsible
Luckily i sms-ed kh and he does not have to suffer the same fate
My guess is that he is still at house =p
Is seriously damn pissed now
Feeling like swearing for the whole street to listen
The only good thing is that it made me forgot another problems that i had

-period-

Break down??

Human emotion is a funny thing
You can feel so much in the same time
Yet at the same time
You felt nothing
Ok what the hell am I crapping here
Actually even I myself is unsure
I am feeling quite complicated now
So many things are going through my mind that I feel like I am going mad soon
Tmr is my structure test 1
But my mind is just not at it at all
Can't get any of those stuffs off my mind
Hopefully can do well tmr
Just can't put my mind in it
Well better get back to studying
Hopefully can concentrate enough
Good luck and all the best
To myself

update update update

Finally managed to grab a win
Err well two wins to be more precisely
In like a few months time? lol
4-0 and 1-0
Played diff team for each half, so counted as two wins la..haha
Actually I didn't really play well today, in fact i played pretty badly
But others were good, so finally we won =)
Running out of breath pretty fast after a week of sickness
The stupid mucous ran into my lung again
But I am all well now ^^

Have been quite busy for the past week
Feel like my timetable is too packed
It is kinda good if compared to some other people
So i shouldn't be mourning here
Well just that I can't get used to it, yet
That's all

Dislike writing reports for material lab
Not like I have any choice though lol
Electrical tutor is a total disaster
I can't take the way he speak(he can't even express himself properly)
I can't take the way he teach
I just can't stand anything of him
And thus resulted in my disastrous Thurs morn lab
Was totally pissed off and was thinking of just ran off from the scene and left the practical as it is
But well being a responsible person as I am *eherm eherm*
I miraculously remained in the lab until the lab ended, even though I didn't complete the whole thing, not enough time etc
Luckily everything after that was kinda good and happy
So i was able to put all the stuff at the back of my mind and continue to enjoy my life
Not gonna let him spoil my day

Nothing else particularly interesting happen in my life though
So just gonna get on with the life
structural test coming up next
1st test of the sem
Have to do well for it
Work hard and all the best to everyone!!

Another topic-less post

I have so much that I wanna say
So much that I wanna tell
Yet do not know how
Just let it be

sleep, rest, dream

Just wanna rant on my sleeping problem
Aren't exactly something new, as most of you already know this
I just simply love to sleep, aren't it the same for most of you?^^
Well the problem here is that i never get to sleep as much as i want
Don't seem to be able to fall asleep easily (well that's common too)
And always wake up almost the same time the next day
From 7 sth to 9am, but usually around 8am
No matter what time i slept the day before( or rather in the morning, if it is past 12=P)
I seemed to wake up at around those time
Ok i see certain advantage here, i have plenty of times a day to do plenty of stuffs
I rarely overslept so no fear of being late (ok mayb i'll still be late sometimes)
But there are times that i seriously just wanna like others, sleep untill 10 or 11 or even straight till noon
Even if i m extremely exhausted/after i had my medicine due to sickness
I m still unable to get any good sleep
The latest i managed is to wake up around 10
During holidays when i watch anime/drama until 4 or 5am
Well if i found myself waking up at 8, i think i might turn mad
Things have its pros and cons
And i know waking up early are not necessarily a bad thing
And maybe all this aren't as big deal as i thought as there might be plenty of ppl out there expeiriencing the same thing
These are just my thought
Since there are times i really hope to spent my whole day on the bed
never waking up=)
On another thought, i seemed to be able to sleep quite easily in the afternoon
But just a nap, wake up quite fast too..just a short 1
Perhaps it is due to fatigue
Or i m just simply more suitable to be an owl =P

Talking bout sleep
People always tend to say that u dun dream when u sleep the most sound/deep
i seemed to have plenty of dreams though
does that means i dun sleep well?
nah just some random stuff, i guess thats the same to everyone isn't it
mayb we just dun have as much dreams as we thought we had during we sleep
Well anyway
Hope everyone out there has a nice day
And a nice sleep too=)

Topic- less

tonnes of works to do
but dun really know how to do
wasted the whole day here playing games
really wanna start to do some work
really wanna do a bit of revision
yet do not have the determination to do it =P
crazy of my mass effect, travelling planet sure is fun
made me wonder how wonderful a human's brain is
it took quite a mind to be able to come up with the whole concept and design of that game
ok maybe not 1 mind but a group of
but still,
simply brilliant :)
started dragonica due to CF
not so bad, but not addicted yet either =)

on another note
this afternoon was really terrifying
while having my short nap
dream of someone strangling me
after i woke up
still feeling as if someone was strangling me
unable to move my hand as if someone was holding it
unable to breath, scream out
was free after a while though
mom told me it was just a normal phenomenon due to the heat
well it was my 1st time, so i was really terrified
really thought i was a goner for a second
ppl always say that u will think of the person that u like the most when you are about to die (or mayb tv drama say so, but who cares =P)
guess who was on my thought at that moment
well
no one in particular =P
was too busy looking for a way/trying desperately to free myself of wadever it was
where got time to think of any1 wo
i nvr give up hope you see
or mayb i m just not quite dead yet=P